WWAAAAAHHHHH!!!!

freaaaakiiiinnnggg ouuuutTTTTT!!!!





i feel like that one episode of Futurama where they have to make a delivery to the planet of giant Amazon women and Fry, Zap Brannigan and Kiff all get sentenced to death by Snoo-snoo.

I'm utterly terrified, then I'm elated, then I'm back to being terrified. God, it just feels like I have some sort of huge exam or presentation or something, and if i don't pass my parents will kill me. I just want it to be over so I can run away to Maryland and never have to live with my parents again.

i'm just sooooooooooo nervous. i just don't wanna go through with all this crap. weddings are supposed to be happy but for me every day is a living nightmare.

andy comes on wednesday. if i can just keep holding on to the small shred of sanity that still remains, i think i might make it.